(((JamieL))) Poor dude. You've got a lot of friends and support here. Take advantage of it. You'll get through this man.
GBL
by JamieL 21 Replies latest jw friends
(((JamieL))) Poor dude. You've got a lot of friends and support here. Take advantage of it. You'll get through this man.
GBL
Thanks so much all you guys for your kind words. I'm very wary of going to a therapist.
I work as an engineer, I don't know if my insurance would cover this and I also wouldn't want to give the impression at work that I'm not professional. I know it might help but I'm just unsure for now.
The very difficult thing is I live alone in this town away from my hometown. And I really don't have any friends. I'm wanting to go back to school here for my masters, there is a very good engineering school here and my job would pay for it. So I have been planning to do that. That would be good.
I wasn't what you would call a traditional witness. More like a liberal witness, I went to college, played sports in highschool. I was on several societies in college. I was on the sailing team, which was great fun. I got to party and be young and stupid and get in crazy situations. But I never once comprimised what I believed in, even though it would have been easy to have all the sex one wanted. Especially with girls drinking way too much. But I just wanted to have fun and I did. Sailing was awesome, it's great on a clear day out in the sun with the wind blowing in the sheets.
I mean I just got involved with her right after college and before I knew it my world shrunk. She started picking off friends, limiting my going out by myself, cutting me off from family. And I let her all because of how she knew me so well, it seemed like it was right. That's so surreal, because she cheated on me, but I never restricted her life to try to protect myself. She always worried about me having other friends she didn't know, or hanging out for drinks.
I still have hobbies, so it's not all bad. I exercise, I like to box, I also am working on investing money which is quite a bit of research, and being by myself it's surprisingly difficult to take care of ones self in this world without someone working with you. Like your parents help when you're a kid, then you get married and you help eachother. I never thought about it too much, but I have it all under control for the most part.
I'm surprised that I have all my bills auto payed, I take care of my health, dental, etc. My car I keep up on regular maintenance, organize my place by myself, clean, do all the laundry. I know I'm 25 and a man and should be doing these things, but if you knew me growing up you'd think I would never make it by myself.
My friend Dan (who is a witness, but he's been my best friend for a long time). He's always told me he's never known someone like me who can just see something they want to do and get it done. So I guess I do have things that I can hold onto, call mine and feel a little better.
What a journey this has been. A tale full of sound and fury I guess.