Dear Frenchy, Simon, and spectromize,
Thank you, brothers for your get well wishes! :)
I will attempt to answer your questions concerning
my speaking in tongues as openly and honestly as I can. I don't wish to offend anyone knowing that
this goes against what we as Jehovah's Witnesses
How do I feel when this is going on-when I am under the influence? Praising Jehovah in the tongues of angels and to actually feel his presence is indescribable. This is by no means merely an emotional high. I did not seek out this
gift, it was given to me. I hardly feel superior to my brothers and sisters because of it. There is
not one other experience I as a human being can duplicate to achieve this inner warmth-this joy.
I am at all times aware of what is going on and what I am doing when I am praying in the spirit.
I can hear what I'm saying. It is quite beautiful.
The words or sounds as I prefer to call them have a musical quality to them unlike languages we are
accustomed to hearing. At least that is the way it
is for me. I can start and stop at will. Now, would I be able to control this if it were demonic
in origin? I don't think so. It is difficult explaining what it is but I know what it is not. It is not "the vain repetitions the heathen do" referred to in Matt 6:7.
What prompts this action-for me it is merely "letting go" and allowing the holy spirit direct communication with Jehovah. I only do this when praying in private. I've always known better than
to let go if front of fellow witnesses. My parents
are more insistant now that I cease this activity
and accept counseling. Oh, that's a good one. On
my own, for many years I have searched the scriptures for answers to my unique situation and have found none to be conclusive.
Maybe it was unwise of me to speak freely on this
matter in this forum. It is not my intent to cause
dissent or to stumble anyone, but many of our faith on the net don't see it that way. I have no
hidden agenda. I was recently asked never to return to a certain chat room if I couldn't keep these thoughts to myself. I was deeply hurt and don't wish to repeat that anytime soon.