Okay, here it is a few months ago I sent in a letter to DA myself, the elders refused to DA me ( there is a first time for everything, I guess) and well I just kinda let it go. Over the last month I've come to realize that life is too short to spend it doing something that does not make you happy. I think that a very small part of me still held on to the idea that it might be the truth, but after giving it a lot of thought I've come to realize that I have not believed in this for a long time. So I sent in another letter requesting to be DAed, I just dont want to deal with going to the market and bumping into someone and having to put up with the never ending questions, "How have you been?" "We've missed you at the meetings" you know the deal. I just don't want to deal with it, I don't want to lie to people that I care about. I've now begun to call a few of my friends and I'm letting them know what's going on, I'm making sure that they know that this was my choice and that I love them.
I decided to do this but it still hurts so much, it's almost like you are dying, isin't it?
Lola