Hi dear WonderWoman, I hope you are feeling a bit better after hopefully a good night's rest.
I'm sorry that things are so hard just when you feel that they are getting better and you are coping/moving on. You may regret it if you don't go to see your grandpa. I know it's hard to remember this, but he is brainwashed. He thinks he's helping you by hurting you. You and I know the truth of that, but I don't think it'd be true to your character to lower yourself to his standards and treat him how he treats you. I know it's easier said than done, and I know that you may get hurt so much again. But like some of the others said, he may truly be grateful that you didn't let the hate get to your heart and you went to him despite how he has rejected you time and again. If we let the hate get to our hearts, then the WTS has won.
Of course, you ultimately know the best thing. But we know how you feel and we are here rooting for you to take care of yourself and be good to yourself. And remember that whatever your grandpa mistakenly thinks about you and yours, it's not true. He's been terribly misinformed by the GB and FDS.
My grandpa was not a JW so it's not the same thing, but when he was dying, I went to see him nearly everyday. But I didn't sit and talk very long because I was wrapped up in JW things. He fought in two wars and I never asked him about it. I never learned about him. I regret it nearly everyday. You won't regret trying to do the right thing, but you might regret not going.
Best to you, and much love. It's just not right and I hope your grandpa can just see you and remember that he loves you and you are his granddaughter and that should be the only thing factoring in his love for you.
I'm here for you.
Love, Good Girl or Bad Girl