Did things happen eg people told you things that got you doubting about the WTS while you were on the field service?
absolutely!!!! I cannot adequately share how deeply I was affected by an experience I had with a return visit I had. This was my first MAJOR wake up call from the Universe regarding my involvement with JW's.............suffice it to say that it helped lay the ground work for other moments that all culminated in me walking away from the local congregation I was part of as an elder's wife, in perfect standing. This experience ate away at me for years, before I finally left, but, I count it, along with the 1995 change of policy in the Watchtower regarding "this generation will see the end of this system" dogma, as my deepest soul telling me what I needed to continue in a greater life's purpose. I had studied in the blue "Truth" book at age 14, and been totally indoctrinated in the absolute certainty that the end was coming in 1975. My mom, still a faithful witness, corroborates this memory. She remembers the brother and his wife, then members of Watchtower Farm, sent as special pioneers to our small town in Upstate New York, to support the newly formed congregation of Jehovah's Witnesses. They studied with me, my sister, and my mother for approximately 1 year in the very early '70's...........mom remembers Jerry telling her that the end was coming in 1975. She also remembers a moment when she was studying the chapter about idols that certain religous systems use to connect with God, such as the Cross. Judy, Jerry's wife interrupted a comment Jerry was making to share that Jerry had a Cross, in his possession, that had been given to him by his mother. Mom's perception of that moment was that Jerry, while fully knowing, and especially as a member of the staff at Watchtower Farms, was still not fully practicing in his life, what the WTBTS, and the Bible, was saying about "graven images". I know, looking back, that some of my feelings and perceptions at that moment were feeble precursors of a strong intuition and "gut" feeling, even at age 14. I sometimes look back at those times and I play the game of "what if" and "if only" but, the facts remain that I walked the path I walked...............but, I am also aware today, that I have a broad range of choices and that I have a right to make my own personal choices in life.