I had 4 babies so I can relate to how you feel. Do you have 5 children now? It is the hardest job you'll ever have. Raising kids is a long journey......good times and bad. But rewarding.
I'm so happy I have my kids. They are adults now. Oldest is 38. Then 35,31,29. And I have 6 grandkids.
From reading some of your posts today it sounds like you still have your humor!!!! That's great.
In fact, I have to go now and get ready to watch my one granddaughter.
So you too have big babies. My largest was over 9# and my last was a little over 7#. He popped out within an hour from start of contractions to birth. All of my births were quick and not too painful. Last baby was colicky and didn't cut his first tooth til he was over 1 yrs. old. Needless to say, he was our last one. A colicky baby is an awful experience. Afraid to have any more after him!
Take care sweetie.