I just heard that two of the fathers of childhood friends of mine, one of them the first boy I ever loved, and the other the head of a good Catholic family with eight kids who lived across the street from us, died within days of each other. Im my mind, those families are frozen in time about 35 years ago when I last saw any of them, and I couldnt conceive of them being gone.
I dont know why but those two men being gone really got to me. I wasnt close to them or anything but It brought home the very real thought that my own parents are going to go soon...and leave me and my two sibs on the planet to carry on. My mother lost her last brother, and she was crying one day so deeply saying "I'm ALL ALONE now..I'm the LAST ONE...they're all gone, my family is all gone." And of course I was like well momma you still have US and your grandkids, but I understood her. HER family was all gone.
I havent lost anyone in my family yet...my grandparents, yes, of old age, but that in my case isnt the same. When those two men died, it was a reality check for me.
God damn the Watchtower Society for driving our families apart! When theyre gone...theyre gone and none of those assholes making the rules from their fucking tower could care less what they've done to us.