I guess i'm looking at my life and thinking whats the point of it. I feel all alone, I seemed to have pressed a self destruct button and pushed everything I had away from me.
There is always a point. Sometimes we push people away because we know in our heart of hearts that they are not good for us. Then we have to deal with the hole that leaves. When you do, you'll find people will be there for you and those people will be better for you than the ones before. You can move forward and you can do it.
You have two children...and you can be such a massive positive influence on them. Keep going and one day you'll realise that you've healed even more and you don't hurt quite as badly.