I was having a good conversation with my mum, and then............... Id said too much.
She had been telling me she didnt ant to go to the hall, for a number of reasons, and when i started critisizing the borg she went all haughty and started telling me I should be going!!!!!!!!!
The usual, Its so near the end, its the only truth............blah blah
Its 3.30am here and I cant sleep, I just want everyone to know i dont go anymore but I cant. Talk about living a double life !
Im 45 for gods sake and Im terrified about the consequences of not going to meetings.
My family , daughter, are still in, they know somethings up but dont "talk" about it.
You either come clean and risk shunning or play being weak and everyone feels the need to be stronger in the "truth" to prove to you how wonderful it all is.
Its a no win suituation.
A lot has happened in the last 3 months and I just want to be honest. But there is a price with honesty