Here it is the anniversary of my baptism. It has been five years since I was baptized and I wish I could take it back. I woke up this morning feeling incredibly sad, lonely and what’s worse I woke up feeling empty. This feeling of emptiness is not a new one; I have felt this way for a while, but today this feeling is just too much it feels like I am drowning. I don’t know how to rid myself of this feeling, I don’t know how to feel okay again, and does that even make sense?