YOU GET A LETTER LIKE THIS AND IT MAKES IT ALL BETTER:
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(From my Daughter)
It’s all too hard to explain,
You know that feeling you get,
When you feel like the whole world has walked out on you when you really need some one to walk in. When you loose your best friend, you’re fighting with your parents, your siblings can’t help, and the one you love doesn’t love you in return.
Its all so hard and it feels like I’m spinning round and round with no way to stop, I try and every time I think I have it I fall so hard It feels like there is no way to get up like I’m damaged for life. Paralyzed and you can’t move, like a cancer with no cure, like when your in the hospital in so much pain and your are just praying some one will pull a plug and let you go and you don’t believe you will live.
It’s so hard to pretend its all okay when in reality its not.
And then the one person who can always make you smile with just one word, the one who lights up your world with their smile, the one who when you look at them, all the chaos just disappears into the sky and makes it all better, that one special person wont even talk to you anymore, and doesn’t even want to look at you.
And now there is no one to turn to.
And with all this going on in my life, I notice no matter how alone you think you are there is always someone out there with all the answers to all your problems just waiting to be found and all you have to do is stand back up again and not be afraid to spin because everyone has to fall and it gives you the strength every time you fall to know you have the courage to stand up.
And go through it all over again because in the end you know its all worth the wild ride and you are just curious enough to wonder what will happen next, and just know it will get harder and harder each time but at the same time isn’t it all worth it just to know things will get better and at the same time harder to keep?
But that’s just the thing! The things that take longer to work on always feel even better at the end just knowing you did it all by yourself without a help in the world! And it’s all you… so OWN IT!
I love you mom and I wrote this for you just to show you it will all get better and I don’t want you to be upset forever and I want you to know that I may not know how bad you are hurting right now and you may not think I could understand because I am so young but that’s okay because I don’t have to understand all I want is for you to know is I love you and something like that could never change.
I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS MOM!
The words pulled right out of my heart from me to you,
Luv,
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Now how could I give up after that?
(In my best Dori voice, "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..."