Recovering from being a JW is HARD as hell, all your structure and life is built on study, ministry and meetings.
Leaving is like someone after stacking up boxes to make steps, pulling the bottom box away...but the people who make it through become strong people and rebuild their lives, make new friends and move on.
What i want to ask is could you read literature by/for JW's now you have left?
I think yes, my reason being is i know that they play with information and then change ideas, there is evidence of this in older literature.
As for current literature i wouldn't bury my head, yes i don't agree with what they say but i am not afraid to point out things.