I don't know about you guys, but It stressed me alot to be a JW.
I never did like talking in public, in front of a group, or going door to door.
Gee, I hated the TMS meeting. The moment I knew that I had a talk, I became nervous and often I had a hard time sleeping. Just knowing that I had to talk for 5 minutes in front of the whole congrgation got me nervous weeks ahead of time. Once I finished my talk, I was so relieved, but not for long....until I got a slip for my next talk.
Also at the book study, it was my turn to read once every 4 or 5 weeks. I used to read the chapter about 10 times out loud at home just to practise, because sometimes there were so many tongue twisters to read.
But what freaked me out the most, was when i knew it wasnt my turn to read, but then brother who was supposed to read didnt show up at meeting, and I HAD to read at the last moment without any warning. My pulse went from 70 to 110 right away.
So, then I learned to wait in front of the book study outside in my car.....just waiting for that brother who was supposed to read, to arrive. If he didn't show up at the book study, I left and went home, so that I wouldnt be the one to read without sufficient practise.
It got me so nervous to read in front of a group, that sometimes my pulse was way up, and I was almost hyper ventilating....
The JW way of life wasn't good for me at all.