I'm at a point that I really don't care anymore if they disfellowship me. I've never been disfellowshipped before, although I'm inactive for years. I just wanted to remain as I am "Inactive Witness". Like every witness, I was taught that once disfellowshipped, you were dead to Jehovah's eyes.
But since a few months, something changed, and I don't care anymore about the JW rules.
I'm not at a point where I will write a letter of dissasociation, but if they do disfellowship me for any reason, It won't bother me at all.
Does this mean I'm making progress?