Took my firefighter Physical Agility Test today. Got to the second part, the hose pull...and then crashed and burned. Talk about supremely disappointing. I was so close to getting the nozzel up over the bar, and then it would have been clear sailing so to speak...but the gloves they gave me to use were so big that I couldn't get a proper grip on the rope let alone cinch it enough to pull the nozzle over. Anyway...I failed...couldn't do the other parts of the test that I would have been able to pass with flying colors on and all I got to do was climb a 75 foot ladder.
I really wanted to do this...it was a firefighter/EMT job...I'm trying to be practical about it, but I never fail...or I never allow myself to...and I fought with that rope till my time was up too. Just a very much bad disappointment. :(
I'm guessing the meds are working pretty well, cause so far so good...I don't feel like my life is over because of this (the old-Sharry would have) and I don't want to die or give up or anything...I was just looking to get into a new field because I'm burned out doing design work for the newspapers around here and there isn't any real advertising agencies where I'm at. I want to keep moving in the direction of getting out of my job...but I just don't know where to go now...sigh.
I'll have another chance, maybe, to retake the test in january (that has not been decided yet.) And I'd like to try it again, but i'm not sure if I could take a twice fail yanno?
I'm sorry that I'm babbling here...i just wanted to get this off my chest. Thanks for reading.
Forsharry of the "I thought I could, I thought I could" Class