Got it off my chest. Had to tell someone.

greenhornet

I am new to the forum . I really learned a lot of information about the truth about the truth. I walked out of the middle of the Sunday public talk many years ago. I still keep in touch with a few of my old friends from the hall. They understand the hell I went through and found out they are my true friends and not continual friends like the other 99%. Made a lot of new “worldly” friends and enjoy there company. I did some spring cleaning and found my old bible and some old study books that go back to the 50’s. It gave me a sick feeling and very bad memories, so I put them in a box and put them in the back of my truck. There they sat for weeks not knowing what to do with them. One day I then went up to the mountains to enjoy the day and did a lot of hiking. I open the back of my truck and remembered the box of books. I then took the box out and put them on the ground walk away about 300 feet and then I got my rifle and put hundreds of rounds in a matter of minutes. These were books from my child hood. I had some mixed emotions about it but at the end I felt in was a major turning point. I did not have a lot of hate in me at the time. I felt a kind of release from the control I had most of my life. The books that controlled my life were gone forever! I know I could just threw them out but It felt better this way. (Kind of like a celebration) FYI I am a sport target shooter. I never shoot anything but targets. I am not a gun crazy. so my emotions were targeted at the past memories and never never at people. It cost a lot of money to do this but I felt it was necessary. I then cleaned up the mess and went home. I never told anyone about this but had to tell someone. So I told you guys. Its now “off my chest”. GH

purplesofa

I remember the day I took piles of mags out to the burn pile in my backyard, poured gas on them and let them burn!!!

Thanks for sharing and glad you felt so much better after you shot them up.

purps

144001

I had to laugh reading your post. When I was a teenager, I remember taking many WT publications into the yard, and using them as targets for a .22 rifle. Then I'd put them back in my parents bookshelves.

Congrats on getting rid of the "demonic" material published by the crotchtower!

moshe

I would have helped you blast those books to smithereens. Glad to hear you are doing OK.

deeskis

Good on you Hornet.

I remember seeing some pics posted of Bigwilly doing something similar.

I still keep in touch with a few of my old friends from the hall. They understand the hell I went through and found out they are my true friends and not continual friends like the other 99%.

unconditional love and friendship :) Not many around like that.

Mary

I open the back of my truck and remembered the box of books. I then took the box out and put them on the ground walk away about 300 feet and then I got my rifle and put hundreds of rounds in a matter of minutes.

A great catharsis greenhornet and very understandable. If it were me, I'd box up the remains and send them to Brooklyn Bethel as is.

mouthy

Hey that was a great way to handle it.
I have a woman in the group -that was sexually abused as a child.
Her therapist told her to do just that. (Not with a gun !!lol )
But to go into the woods dig a hole, & throw everything that reminded her of the abuser .
..(She was 8 at the time..he used her ..)So in went his picture & 25 cents..... that is what he used to give her after his "jollies" each time......

Glad your doing well
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greenhornet

Wow you guys totally understand what I was going through. I would not tell anyone here what I did. I also feel safe now so when the Nazi's break down the door they will find nothing! Remember when we were suppose to hide the books and magazines?

Emma

we were suppose to hide the books and magazines?

Do I ever remember that! I was terrified of the police and any one in military uniform. You must have been in the borg from a young age; I'm a couple of years older than you.

Welcome!

OnTheWayOut

Wow you guys totally understand what I was going through.

Just last weekend, I burned some literature in my own undedication ceremony. I wrote
about it here. It helps a great deal. Thanks for getting it off your chest.

Got it off my chest. Had to tell someone.

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