Thanks, everyone. I quit!: How will they tell if I'm an apostate? I'm going to play the depression card; how long do you think I can go with that?
Chameleon
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by Chameleon inhello everyone.. i'm an "active" jw and have been for...13 years but my faith in the jw org died about 5 years ago.. so, i've been doing the jw thing for 5 years now without believing in it.
i might be an ms soon, unfortunately.. i tried telling my parents about it but they said apostates are good with twisting words and whatnot.. they wouldn't even let me show them evidence of wt hypocrisy; however, my mother did say she found it odd that every once in a while, there's that publisher resolution of donating a certain amount a year.
there might be hope for her yet.
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by Chameleon inhello everyone.. i'm an "active" jw and have been for...13 years but my faith in the jw org died about 5 years ago.. so, i've been doing the jw thing for 5 years now without believing in it.
i might be an ms soon, unfortunately.. i tried telling my parents about it but they said apostates are good with twisting words and whatnot.. they wouldn't even let me show them evidence of wt hypocrisy; however, my mother did say she found it odd that every once in a while, there's that publisher resolution of donating a certain amount a year.
there might be hope for her yet.
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Chameleon
Thanks.
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by Chameleon inhello everyone.. i'm an "active" jw and have been for...13 years but my faith in the jw org died about 5 years ago.. so, i've been doing the jw thing for 5 years now without believing in it.
i might be an ms soon, unfortunately.. i tried telling my parents about it but they said apostates are good with twisting words and whatnot.. they wouldn't even let me show them evidence of wt hypocrisy; however, my mother did say she found it odd that every once in a while, there's that publisher resolution of donating a certain amount a year.
there might be hope for her yet.
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Chameleon
My parents started studying in '93, when I was 8, and they got baptized in '95.
So I was raised as a JW, although not all my life. I missed Christmas the most during those first years.
Anyway, I thank everyone for their honest advice.
I appreciate it greatly.
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by Chameleon inhello everyone.. i'm an "active" jw and have been for...13 years but my faith in the jw org died about 5 years ago.. so, i've been doing the jw thing for 5 years now without believing in it.
i might be an ms soon, unfortunately.. i tried telling my parents about it but they said apostates are good with twisting words and whatnot.. they wouldn't even let me show them evidence of wt hypocrisy; however, my mother did say she found it odd that every once in a while, there's that publisher resolution of donating a certain amount a year.
there might be hope for her yet.
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becca1: I should get my AA degree in June (if I take more classes each semester) =)
In my 13 years of being a JW, there was only one month when I had more than 10 hours.
So I hope that prevents me from being an MS.
I never found the idea of living from paycheck to paycheck very appealing. =)
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by Chameleon inhello everyone.. i'm an "active" jw and have been for...13 years but my faith in the jw org died about 5 years ago.. so, i've been doing the jw thing for 5 years now without believing in it.
i might be an ms soon, unfortunately.. i tried telling my parents about it but they said apostates are good with twisting words and whatnot.. they wouldn't even let me show them evidence of wt hypocrisy; however, my mother did say she found it odd that every once in a while, there's that publisher resolution of donating a certain amount a year.
there might be hope for her yet.
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Chameleon
Thanks, Juni.
To be fair, I've never been treated badly, but I've never been treated greatly, either.
I don't really know people I consider a true friend in the hall anymore, and the main factor for my deciding to break away was the hypocrisy. It all started when I started thinking why I was a JW, and what better way to reinforce your beliefs than by reviewing the history, right? I wasn't shocked when I found out the truth about "the truth" since there always seemed something wrong with it, although I couldn't figure out what.
Also, since the first year that I started going to meetings, every once in a while I would hear "apostate" and I asked what that was. What never clicked with me was that if the JWs were the truth, then surely all the criticism would be lies, so why wasn't it ok to see/read/listen to the critics?
I can't continue living a lie for much longer.
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by Chameleon inhello everyone.. i'm an "active" jw and have been for...13 years but my faith in the jw org died about 5 years ago.. so, i've been doing the jw thing for 5 years now without believing in it.
i might be an ms soon, unfortunately.. i tried telling my parents about it but they said apostates are good with twisting words and whatnot.. they wouldn't even let me show them evidence of wt hypocrisy; however, my mother did say she found it odd that every once in a while, there's that publisher resolution of donating a certain amount a year.
there might be hope for her yet.
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jwfacts: thanks.
Well, my parents are the only ones I've spoken to about my doubts, so they're on red alert; I still live with them because I have no means of moving out.
They wake me up for service and if I say no, they'd probably think I've been going on more "apostate" sites (which I have, but I'm not telling them).
I doubt they would rat me out to the elders (even though my dad is one) so I don't think they would shun me if I faded away.
For now, I have to put up the illusion of being a good JW, though.
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by Chameleon inhello everyone.. i'm an "active" jw and have been for...13 years but my faith in the jw org died about 5 years ago.. so, i've been doing the jw thing for 5 years now without believing in it.
i might be an ms soon, unfortunately.. i tried telling my parents about it but they said apostates are good with twisting words and whatnot.. they wouldn't even let me show them evidence of wt hypocrisy; however, my mother did say she found it odd that every once in a while, there's that publisher resolution of donating a certain amount a year.
there might be hope for her yet.
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Chameleon
onthewayout: I need to learn how to drive and get a job where I can support myself (luckily, I only need one more year to get my AA degree; it's not much, but it's a start. Surprising that my parents let me go to the local community college.)
I was thinking of getting a job that has frequent overtime as an excuse.
parakeet: Thanks.
How did you leave? By moving out, or did you mean leave the cong.?
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by Chameleon inhello everyone.. i'm an "active" jw and have been for...13 years but my faith in the jw org died about 5 years ago.. so, i've been doing the jw thing for 5 years now without believing in it.
i might be an ms soon, unfortunately.. i tried telling my parents about it but they said apostates are good with twisting words and whatnot.. they wouldn't even let me show them evidence of wt hypocrisy; however, my mother did say she found it odd that every once in a while, there's that publisher resolution of donating a certain amount a year.
there might be hope for her yet.
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Chameleon
Thanks, Ethan. My doubts never were about God, but the WT claiming to be the rep. of God. I still have faith in God. =)
onthewayout: When you mean family, do you mean wife (or husband?) and kids? Or do you mean parent, siblings, etc.?
My parents and my only other sibling, my sister, are direct family that's JW. I'm 21 soon and I used to think that I'd ask out a girl that's been my friend for a while but about two years ago some girl came to our hall and she (the new girl) seems to have lesbian tendencies. So I gave up on her 'cause of that; not to mention the fact that it'd be harder to leave if I got married in the org.
People on this board seem friendly, which is more than I can say for my hall. At the local hall, there are about 3 cliques and I'm not part of any of them. I usually have the sound system duty, so I just lay back after the meetings until it's time to leave (can't drive yet).
Looking back on it, I never really found joy in going out to service, or attending meetings, but in hanging out with friends. They were never very "spiritual" and neither was I, so I guess that's why we could relate to each other. They were two, and one of them left 'cause his father got DFd and I guess with no fatherly support, he didn't feel like going on. However, I kept hanging out with him but my parents told me to stop. The other left 'cause he liked some "wordly" girl. I lost contact with both of them. About 5 years ago, I made a new friend in the hall, but he moved away about two years ago although I still talk to him.
I'm willing to give it all up for freedom (although I'd rather fade).
I know this is a long post but I just want to express myself freely, so I thank you all for reading this.
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by Chameleon inhello everyone.. i'm an "active" jw and have been for...13 years but my faith in the jw org died about 5 years ago.. so, i've been doing the jw thing for 5 years now without believing in it.
i might be an ms soon, unfortunately.. i tried telling my parents about it but they said apostates are good with twisting words and whatnot.. they wouldn't even let me show them evidence of wt hypocrisy; however, my mother did say she found it odd that every once in a while, there's that publisher resolution of donating a certain amount a year.
there might be hope for her yet.
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Chameleon
Thanks.
I'd reveal more about myself but I think everyone here could relate to how I feel about being found out.
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New here
by Chameleon inhello everyone.. i'm an "active" jw and have been for...13 years but my faith in the jw org died about 5 years ago.. so, i've been doing the jw thing for 5 years now without believing in it.
i might be an ms soon, unfortunately.. i tried telling my parents about it but they said apostates are good with twisting words and whatnot.. they wouldn't even let me show them evidence of wt hypocrisy; however, my mother did say she found it odd that every once in a while, there's that publisher resolution of donating a certain amount a year.
there might be hope for her yet.
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Chameleon
Hello everyone.
I'm an "active" JW and have been for...13 years but my faith in the JW org died about 5 years ago.
So, I've been doing the JW thing for 5 years now without believing in it. I might be an MS soon, unfortunately.
I tried telling my parents about it but they said apostates are good with twisting words and whatnot.
They wouldn't even let me show them evidence of wt hypocrisy; however, my mother did say she found it odd that every once in a while, there's that publisher resolution of donating a certain amount a year. There might be hope for her yet. I also showed her the pyramid thing next to Russel's grave.
My father, however, has been an elder for two years, and when I told him that I didn't want to be a JW anymore, he got a look on his face like he wanted to kill himself.
He said that because I might be made an MS soon, that Satan was trying to get me. He didn't listen to anything I had to say.
Since my parents freaked when I told them, I've gone along with the bs, but my plan is to move out somewhere at least half an hour away from here.
I'm just wondering if anyone has been in a similar situation and how they got out.