At what stage of recovery are you? Are you angry? Are you depressed? Are you yet desperately looking for the 'only true religion' to replace what you have lost? Are you past these stages and have found happiness and contentment again? It is my hope that this thread will not to be a discussion of where you should be going and how you should get there. My intent is simply to discuss the various stages most people go through in deprogramming and the emotions that accompany this journey. The purpose of discussing this is to help those who are:
angry that you were duped for so many years fearful that you have wasted your life in a farce or that your family and friends will shun you if you are caught thinking feeling hopeless, now that everything you thought was true seems to be a shame promoted by other duped people desperate to re-establish certainty in your life, not realizing that the only thing certain in life is disillusionment and change.
to share your feelings. Then I hope those who have "been there, done that" can share their experience so as to assure you that what you are experiencing and feeling is normal.
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