by heyfea 13 Replies latest jw experiences
HELLO EVERYONE,
I HAVE LEFT THE ORGANIZATION FOR MANY YEARS NOW AND I AM VERY HAPPY ABOUT IT. HOWEVER, FROM TIME TO TIME, I DREAM THAT I AM OUT IN SERVICE. I DON'T WANT TO BE THERE AND I THINK TO MYSELF, JUST WALK AWAY, GO HOME, IT'S JUST THAT SIMPLE. IT'S REALLY LIKE A NIGHTMARE. DOES THESE KIND OF DREAMS HAPPEN TO ANYONE ELSE OUT THERE? WHY DO YOU THINK HAPPENS?
REGARDS
oh my yes, Just last weekend, i dreamed i had died, and was in line to be judged. i was to pick up some substance that looked like sawdust. if it liquifed, i was a good person and would receive my reward. Well mine didn't , it got moist and rolled into a little ball. I was desperately tryng to get it to liquefy. Add to this, i was in a ROOM FULL OF ELDERS. They were trying to pass judgment on me. I heard one say something about extenuating circumstances. All in all it was awful. I remember saying to myself, this must be a dream, pls let it be a dream. i know i'll wake up soon. Otherwise, i'm going to die.I tell u, when i awoke i was sweating.From time to time i have thee horrible JC dream meetings. And JWS don't think they cause harm.
So u are not alone.
welcome to the board.
weds
I'M GLAD TO KNOW THAT I'M NOT ALONE, AND YES, IT IS THE WTS FAULT. IT GONNA HUNT ME FOREVER.
as Freud once said about dreams - "Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar" .... in other words, go figure, there's nothing symbolic about it at all, so relax.
I can't say I dream about it, maybe thoughts related to it but not issues regarding it. If I was to dream about it, it would probably be seeing the WTS head quarters getting tourched by God and the GB being brought to justice.
I used to dream I wanted to go back the the JW's.
Then , I started dreaming that I would drive into the parking lot and right then and there I would decide to turn around and leave, because I didnt feel like being shunned for how ever long it would take for them to reinstate me.......lol.
Now I dont dream of any of it, but darn, now that I have said that I will probably dream one of those scarey, "I'm gonna die at Armeggedon " dreams.....I used to have those alot when I first left the borg.
In my dreams I have slowly went from those dreams of my own destruction, to ones where I will not stand for anyone judging me anymore.
My dreams ( or my subconscience) have walked with me thru my JW exodus.
I sometimes dream that I'm out in service, or at the meetings, and even at assemblies!! In the dream, I'm inactive, but not everyone in the dream knows that I am. Sometimes I have to talk at the doors, or talk to the JWs as if I'm still an active JW, so I talk the talk, all the while knowing that I don't believe in any of this anymore. In the dream, I'm mentally screaming "this is all a bunch of lies" but I don't say anything. Perhaps to keep the status quo.
So at least I'm not the only one having these types of dreams!
In the dream, I'm mentally screaming "this is all a bunch of lies" but I don't say anything. Perhaps to keep the status quo.
There's nothing wrong with maintaining the Status Quo!
Besides, my dreams are usually about Prisca...
I have those dreams about once every 3 or 4 months. Sometimes I am out in service, other times I am at a circuit or district assembly and then my name is called for a part that I hadnt prepared or even looked at. On dream I got up to give a part i hadnt prepared for....mumbled something for a minute or two, then the DO gets up and thanks me for that excellent part. I usually wake up in a cold sweat from those dreams. Cheers, Taz
tazmaniac,
now that you mentioned it, I too dream sometimes that I'm at the meetings and that I'm not prepared for my part. Now THAT'S a scary feeling. Even when I was in the borg. I dreaded to be given a part, even when everyone said I was SO elocuent and stuff. I HATED IT.
