I have spent 45 years of my life sacrificing my soul to the Watchtower. Twenty-five of those years as a MS/Elder. I gave every moment to them. Even if no one was going to show up for service on New Year's day, I was there to take the lead. If one could not give that public talk, I gave it. I sacrificed fun and rest time to slave with blood, sweat, and tears, for the Watchtower. I "maxed out" on privileges. At the time, nothing else was more important. You get my point. Many of you know exactly what I mean.
Just recently I have been thinking about some in the organization that really irritate me. It really angered me when I had conversations with them recently. Perhaps you know the kind of people I will describe. I have a couple relatives that have been in the "truth" for years, but either did nothing in the organization or did not really do anything extra, such as ms or elder. Just did the basics like others. Two of these individuals were fire captains. Lived at the station for a couple of weeks each month. Of course, they missed meetings, service, and didn't qualify for privileges due to schedule. One even filled his time off at the station with truck driving. There wives did not need to work. One never worked a day in her life. They got all the benefits. Decent pay, medical, bonus packages, and retirement. I have another relative who is an unbelieving husband. He enjoyed the people at the meetings and assemblies. I believe he really thought he was a witness. I always tried to convince him of baptism. But of course, there was always a reason why he wasn't ready. He wanted to make sure he had an affection for Jehovah. (Whatever)You and I know that there is a HUGE difference between an unbeliever and a baptized witness.
Now with the unbeliever, he is getting older and is now thinking more of spirituality. So when he found out about how I have quickly abandoned the organization, he seemed upset with me. He would start to defend the Watchtower. He tried to question my motives about leaving. I explained to him that he has ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA of what it means to be a witness. I explained how he has spent decades being a free thinker, making his own decisions about how to use his time, and is clueless to our way of life. Oh, BUT NOW the organization is so important. Now it is important when YOU decide it is. Where were you when I was encouraging you and working like a dog for the Watchtower? I want relief from this Watchtower crap, and now you are telling me how important it is. The other two relatives finally retired and are now reaping the benefits. Oh, BUT NOW spirituality is important. Now you are a ms and now everyone should be sacrificing their very soul to the gb. You now look down on me for allowing my son to live on a college campus but you spent years living with those"worldly" workmates at the station.
It is those types that anger me. In fact I even get angry at young people who never did anything in the organization, but now they discovered TTATT. I see them crying now, simply because they viewed the Watchtower as an insurance policy, something they can go back to, when THEY needed it. Anyway, a long post but I just get irritated that I am the evil one now, NOW that THEY finally decide what is important to them.
Just recently I have been thinking about some in the organization that really irritate me. It really angered me when I had conversations with them recently. Perhaps you know the kind of people I will describe. I have a couple relatives that have been in the "truth" for years, but either did nothing in the organization or did not really do anything extra, such as ms or elder. Just did the basics like others. Two of these individuals were fire captains. Lived at the station for a couple of weeks each month. Of course, they missed meetings, service, and didn't qualify for privileges due to schedule. One even filled his time off at the station with truck driving. There wives did not need to work. One never worked a day in her life. They got all the benefits. Decent pay, medical, bonus packages, and retirement. I have another relative who is an unbelieving husband. He enjoyed the people at the meetings and assemblies. I believe he really thought he was a witness. I always tried to convince him of baptism. But of course, there was always a reason why he wasn't ready. He wanted to make sure he had an affection for Jehovah. (Whatever)You and I know that there is a HUGE difference between an unbeliever and a baptized witness.
Now with the unbeliever, he is getting older and is now thinking more of spirituality. So when he found out about how I have quickly abandoned the organization, he seemed upset with me. He would start to defend the Watchtower. He tried to question my motives about leaving. I explained to him that he has ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA of what it means to be a witness. I explained how he has spent decades being a free thinker, making his own decisions about how to use his time, and is clueless to our way of life. Oh, BUT NOW the organization is so important. Now it is important when YOU decide it is. Where were you when I was encouraging you and working like a dog for the Watchtower? I want relief from this Watchtower crap, and now you are telling me how important it is. The other two relatives finally retired and are now reaping the benefits. Oh, BUT NOW spirituality is important. Now you are a ms and now everyone should be sacrificing their very soul to the gb. You now look down on me for allowing my son to live on a college campus but you spent years living with those"worldly" workmates at the station.
It is those types that anger me. In fact I even get angry at young people who never did anything in the organization, but now they discovered TTATT. I see them crying now, simply because they viewed the Watchtower as an insurance policy, something they can go back to, when THEY needed it. Anyway, a long post but I just get irritated that I am the evil one now, NOW that THEY finally decide what is important to them.
