thank you all for answering.
Sandy, the wts is not Jah. no doubts. don't be afraid to explore as i was for 27 years. read david reed's books, "jehovah's witnesses answered subject by subject" and "answering jehovah's witnesses verse by verse". the first was particularly helpful. read crisis of conscience by raymond franz to see how the wts operates. go to freeminds.org. these will dispell your doubts. i feel for you, something better is coming.
loris. YES!
kat_newmas, i hardly know what to say to you except that i love you and you are awesome.
DJ, i read it today, i understand as psalm ll8:8 in the midst of great had the same effect on me and gave me my answer.