Forgive me just really venting here. As some of you may know my mom suffered an accident about 1 month ago, she fell down a flight of stairs. Luckily she didnt break anything, she just had a minor concussion and some stitches on her head. Today we were discussing what happened, I told her that I found it highly unusual that she would fall like that, we've been in this house for 24 years, even in the dark I'm pretty sure that I could find my way around. Then she said it. "I dont remember falling, but I remember feeling a strong draft of very cold air right before it happened. I think there are demons in this house again."
Now just to explain a little, we have Brazilian tenants occupying the first floor. Apparently they belong to some evangelical/Pentecostal/Santeria type of religion. Of course mom objects to this. So now she is convinced that someone put some kind of curse or spell on her. Its true that the people downstairs have not bothered to inquire about her condition; I know that they know that she fell. But other than that I personally have nothing against them, and they seem to be ok peoplethey work and pay their rent when its due without any problems. But mom would like to see them go.
I didnt want to discuss this any further with my mother, but I was quite upset. There are times when I just want to take my mother by the shoulders and just shake her really hard, and beg her to wake up! I am so sick and tired of how the damn watchtower bible and crap society puts these ideas in her head!!! It sickens me how I cant even have a normal conversation with her, much less a normal relationship because of that damn religion. All that comes out of her mouth is dogma, dogma and more dogma. Its like, where is she underneath all those layers of watchtower crap? Who is she really? But my hands are tied. I try really hard to respect her point of view, which of course I am more than familiar with, and not get in the way of what she truly believes is the truth, but it gets harder and more frustrating everyday. It drives me insane when all she could do is quote from the latest Awake!, rather than take the time to think and research topics on her own. It drives me even further insane when the so called brothers and sisters just use her, asking her incessantly for favors, but when she needs something, who is there? Nobody!
I just told her quite frankly that this house is very drafty, that the night she fell was in fact very very cold, and that demons dont exist once you stop believing in them, which is what stopped the attacks that I suffered while I was a JW. More on this later. Thanks for letting me vent.
Edited by - Soledad on 11 January 2003 21:56:38