All of the remarks before me says it all!
We are all sad to here of your lost, but do not be disappointed with this board for not caring.
The old saying goes "If you want to have a friend,------ be a friend." With only 8 post in almost one Year you have not really made yourself available,now have you?
You need to think about the future.
Most of the people here have died too, their old life, with their friends family have all been stripped away from them, they are here to encourage each other, and people like yourself who stop in every now and then.
To quote Shawshank redemption "Its time to get busy living or get busy dying".