Today is Valentine's Day...a day to share with your partner. Today is bittersweet for me.
My husband is a wonderful man....intelligent, a gifted musician, kind, handsome....and an alcoholic. He spent the day drinking, and I spent my Valentine's Day evening eating supper alone in front of the TV.
Tomorrow is my birthday. I know he hasn't remembered it, and to remind him will do nothing other than foster guilt...so I will not.
So far we've been lucky. Other than wasted days and nights and foolish battles, there have been no major health problems....yet; but I know they're coming...I know, and there is nothing I can do to stop the inevitable.
I found a man who loved me and whom I also loved. I have not lost him to another woman, but I have lost him....to a cruel, heartless mistress.
Please forgive me for being so maudlin....but it's Valentine's Day....and I miss him.