It's only been a month or so sense I fully awoke to the fact that my whole family for 3 generations has been fully entrenched in a cult. I went threw terrible drug addiction like withdraws, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts etc etc etc. For about a week I could barely sleep and then another all I wanted to do is sleep. My wife confronted me thinking I was cheating on her because of suspicious behavior and I spilled the beans causing us both more pain. Our relationship hasn't been the same since. I have gotten zero sex as one major indicator. She wants to forget what I said about Evolution being an obvious fact, It has all the universal patterns of cult behaviour and that the WT doesn't have our best interests at heart. She has tried to push these things beyond her conscious recall I think. She also tries to rationalize that I didn't mean these things because I was having a bipolar mood swing. (I'm diagnosed bipolar I) She cries sometimes for random reasons in the shower where she thinks I can't hear but I can hear her sobs. Her mother who is an extremely Mindctrld JW has been here for almost 2 weeks making things worse. I refuse to study for meetings so she has usurped my headship on that so far. I don't go to meetings but she insists on it so my wife goes after not going for about a month. MIL insisted on reading from the Draw close to Jehovah book after dinner today. It was a section about how us poor JW's are beat down with problems and that Jah is hearing our prayer, kind and loving and reading hearts blah blah blah. Her reason for reading it was that she knew that we all suffered from mood disorders and all have to take drugs to correct it. ISNT THAT A COINCIDENCE!? MIL takes an anti anxiety med, an antidepressant, muscle relaxers, Ambien hydrocodine, diabetic meds and a mood stabilizer. My wife takes prozac and I take Ambien and a mood stabilizer. With that much RX I don't think she would know the truth if it walked up and slapped her in the face. Anyway It's funny how she didn't pull out the bible instead? I could have dealt with that because at least that wasn't written by the insane GB! My wife ate it up and became kinda emotional but thankfully didn't fall to pieces that time. My response was just to stiffle my anger and frustration as my MIL tries to take back her daughter from me right in front of my eyes. MIL was supposed to leave today but yet she is still in the next room reading a book and petting my cat. All she talkes about is WT this WT this this brother did this and this sister said that and I heard this in a talk and isn't that so comforting. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH! It was annoying before I woke up! I'm at my wits end and seeing red flashing lights. Danger DANGER will robinson! I feel so trapped and in this sort of twilight zone.
Oh wait she just did something else really stupid just now. She walked into our bedroom and flipped the lights on while my wife was sleeping just to ask if she had read her magizines for field service. She said flatly NO! oh god turn the lights out MOM! I jumped all over her and told her never to do that again. I asked her if she would like it if I did that to her. She then said that that is my daughter and I care about her very much but don't worry I'm leaving tommrow and you won't have to deal with me anymore. I said well that is my wife and I'm telling you don't ever do that again! Hows that for passive aggressive.
if you don't already know the backstory its all here. http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/members/private/224618/1/spilled-the-beans