WELCOME! Best Wishes on your journey. (When you're ready for it, I'll say "Good Luck!")
Have u became bitter?
The bitterness comes and goes. Repeating the horrible ole JW cliche, "Will trials make you bitter or better?" So I've learned and am moving on. As I've gotten to know others, my life isn't so bad compared to the problems of others. Could be better, could be worse.
do u all still believe in God?
Yeah, kinda. But not the God of the Bible. The Bible has some interesting stories and lessons, but that's about it. It's not a magical roadmap to salvation any more than the Harry Potter series is. If God really exists and if he wants me to know his plans, he would do it far better than using WT with their childish publications with their ever-changing "truth" and false prophecies.
How do u worship Him if at all?
God, as I perceive him, doesn't need to be worshipped. Did your parents or grandparents demand to be worshipped? If I were God, I wouldn't be so shallow and superficial to demand that my creatures had to waste time and money serving me when they should help one another instead.
Have u found Jehovah's true followers if not witnesses?
See above. Anybody that claims to be "God's Channel" had better be able to provide free meals, calm storms, heal the sick, raise the dead, and walk on water, for starters. Anybody else that claims to be God's true followers will make false promises, then come after you for money and start leading you around like a slave.
Do u feel at peace with God?
Yes. Now more than ever. I no longer believe that God demands that all my time and energy revolve around him and a kooky GB. Better than being at peace with God, I'm at peace with myself. I've forgiven myself for being deceived by Watchtower. I no longer feel like I should be "doing more for Jehovah". I can actually pursue happiness without all the WT nonsense that filled me with unhappiness.
Are u happy?
I'm not unhappy. It would be unrealistic to say that I'm always happy, all the time. But I am happier than I've ever been before. Instead of living the WT life that was going nowhere, waiting for rocks to start killing the worldly people, I now can pursue the things I enjoy. I'm pursuing a degree that gives my life a sense of progress, instead of just putting in time until everyone else dies.
Do u have any doubt that u made the right decision?
No doubts. I just wish that I would have started to wake up sooner.
If this is not the truth then why are some of u still 'fading'?
Like I should run in to the KH shouting? I fade because I still want to have contact with a few of my family. And that has given me the opportunity to talk to several of them honestly. Fading is a way of getting out without that can be less stressful, but not always. If pressed, I'd DA.
why condone untruth?
Please don't ask me to start telling children that there is no Santa. Don't ask me to tell everyone obese, "hey, you're really fat." And I have no interest in running into every church telling everyone where they're wrong. I'm not obligated to stamp out every untruth in the world. The fact is, it's not me that is condoning untruth... it is God that condones untruth. If it's so important that everyone should be set straight, wouldn't it be God's place to break the bad news to everyone. As mentioned, I've already talked to several in my family about "the truth." Certainly, the truth about "the truth" can be found, but most JWs would choose to reject truth. I'm just walking away from the untruth on my own terms.
Would God be happy if this isn't the truth and yet u still atempt to condone and fade?
I'm not the key to God's happiness. If he doesn't like what's going on with WT, he should get off his ass and fix it himself. I have a cell phone and it would be very easy if he wanted to set me straight on something. In fact, I'd welcome a call from skydaddy, but instead, he makes it a guessing game. Consequently, I'm doing the best that I can.
