Have u become bitter?
I hold no animosity towards the people that I know and still care for in the ORG. However, I do have great comtempt for the corporate machine and ruthless people that are at the heart of the JW cult and the damage it does to people.
Do you all still believe in God?
I consider myself agnostic at this point. Consider this: when an abused wife leaves her husband that has been abusing her for perhaps decades, she may feel that all men are worthless and it would be impossible to have a healthy relationship with them. It's similar. It's spiritual abuse. And since we've been taught to loathe all other religions and point out their flaws, then it's very hard to want anything to do with organized religion and God.
How do you worship him, if at all?
I live me life. I try to make my wife happy. I try to make my kids happy. I do my best to take care of them. I am trying to live my life to the fullest. I help others when I am in a position to do so. Recently we took in another ex-jw who was homeless, kicked out of his apartment because he didn't go to meetings. We did this despite the fact that we are struggling to provide for ourselves. We did it because it was the right thing to do. I try to follow the spirit of Jesus' teachings because I believe they are basically the laws of universal good that are also found in other creeds and faiths. I don't think that just because someone isn't religious doesn't mean that they aren't moral or ethical. IN FACT, I would propose that those that AREN'T religious that hold true to their code of conduct, ethics and morals as being more worthy of praise because no one is holding a gun to their heads to do the right thing.
Have u found Jehovah's true followers if not witnesses?
Nope. See my statement above about spiritual abuse. Also, in time you'll find that the "personal name" of God that isn't even IN the New Testament, and was created in the middle ages. Jesus did NOT use the name. This will be another eye opener. Also, another mind f%^& if you will was this: The "Bible" that JWs follow was assembled by "apostates" in the 3rd century.
Do you feel at peace with God?
I feel at peace with myself. I am going to have my first birthday party. No one is going to be beheaded. I realized that if there is a God how can he be so cruel as to promote the feelings of personal worthlessness that JWs live with every day?
Are you happy?
I am happier. I have been told by other "worldy" people that we know that I seem happier and more relaxed and at peace with myself. I CAN say that please be careful when/if you do leave, since you may tend to act like a teenager and work things out of your system, so just don't be self destructive. Holidays for us are HAPPY times when family can come together and build memories.
If this is not the truth then why are some of u still 'fading'? why condone untruth? Would God be happy if this isn't the truth and yet u still atempt to condone and fade?
Once you DO realize that it's a cult, then you will see the cultish tactics and emotional blackmail and forcing people to tow the line OR ELSE lose their family and friends and possibly job or business realtionships. You will come to realize that they hold no authority over you and AREN'T ENTITLED TO THE TRUTH about your personal feelings and beliefs. It's a tough price to pay for those that have much to lose.
