Wow, that is an amazing poem =)
I honestly have no words to really say about what you're going through. I've read these posts and I feel a lot of pain but not because I've been through losing a parent to physical death. I don't imagine it's anything I can relate to until I've been through it myself. I've wondered how I will handle losing my father when the time comes and how I'll deal with this cult of peddlers. I can only imagine the pain of losing a parent to death in itself and you also having the frustration of dealing with bastards is not anything I think I could handle. But I want to say thank you. You've done a great job in showing your father the proper respect and still mourning him, not like a JW robot trying to sell at every occasion, but like a flesh and blood daughter should. Thank you for a glimpse at how to navigate through a difficult sitation like this.
I don't know how you feel but I hope you have a sense of peace while you go through this.