Hello everyone!
I’ve been lurking here for the past couple of months since I started researching the organization. I don’t have many people to talk to and it’s been a saving grace to read your posts.
I don’t really know where to start so here I go. It’s been a long journey getting here and it looks as if I still have a long ways to go to get somewhere healthy, stable and strong. I have read a lot of posts on this board and sometimes I feel like I’ve been reading my own life story. I’ve cried, laughed (I admire many peoples’ sense of humor despite the pain), been infuriated and a host of emotions I didn’t even know existed when reading what people have gone through.
I will try to keep this brief as I’m sure my story will come out in bits and pieces later. I have felt for years that something is wrong but I never allowed myself to question things too much. I come from a highly controlling environment from my childhood to the organization to my marriage. I started reading self-help books a year and a half ago and it led to an interest in psychology, neuroscience and microbiology. This led to reading about mind control. I slowly started to put things together. I started observing things around me and had many questions. Who are these men in Brooklyn that run my life? What do I know about them? Why are they all men and no women? I then gave myself permission to research this organization. Then came the shock, horror, rage, fury, sadness, guilt, blinding rage, sadness . . . so on.
My main issues: Lack of love, pedophilia, lack of respect for women, blood transfusion issue, the massacre in Malawi, the ‘eliteness’ of the governing body, twisted scriptures, Jesus is the mediator only for the 144,000, United Nations affiliation, 100% failed prophecy rate, control of every aspect of life, Johannes Greber (spiritist who’s translation of John 1:1 was used for the NWT), lack of transparency of the WT, lies told by the WT, the massive wealth amassed by the WT - I can keep going but I think you all get the gist!
Effect on family: My husband’s loyalty is to the organization, my teenage son is probably thoroughly confused buy believes it’s the truth, I finally got through to my mom. My father and friends have since reported me to the elders and they have come to my door and are on a mission. Overnight I discovered that most of my relationships have been conditional - heartbreaking. I thank my ‘worldly’ friends for their true and unconditional friendship.
I’m sorry – this has not been very brief! I’m glad I found a group of people who share a lot of the same trials. I look forward to discussions and sharing ideas.
Hadit