Just wanted to say hello to all here. I really don't have much of a story to tell about myself. Just find myself at a crossroads of sorts and wondering if I should stay or move on, although the greater part is telling me to move on.
Long story short, I have been a baptised JW for 14 years. Started off ok, but find myself feeling burned out by this religion's oppression and absurd teachings. Find it futile for me to want to continue preaching a message that I find hard to believe in myself. Never agreed on the disfellowshipping to be a "loving" arrangement by God and please don't get me started with the whole dating arrangment. How is it even possible to even find someone in the faith to marry when this religion goes out of its way to create a divide among the sexes? Also, add to the mix some eye-opening situations in the organization coupled with some revelation of falsehoods and you make for one unhappy customer.
However, what keeps me staying is some friendships I have made along the way (particularly with this one sister who I consider to be my best friend ) and of course, my newly converted parents (don't like the idea of not being able to have them in my life). So, thus, my dilemma.
I started reading at some of the "apostate" sites and that have led me to my own little research and discoveries. I still have much to learn and read as some of what I have read are very thought-provoking, while others are a bit hard to digest. That led me to this site.
So here I am on the road of contemplation wondering what and where will this journey lead me to.