We have probably all felt that treipidation when we were JWs though...i recall I think in 1985 it being declared the "Year of Peace and Security" and omygod the reaction just hearing those WORDS used created in us as JWs!! And all the religious leaders of the world were going to meet in a summit and something BIG was gonna happen and and and....that was 23 years ago and still nothing. And there will continue to be nothing.
How exactly does anyone BAN a religion or religions anyway? If I said to the Pope, "sorry dude religion has been outlawed." Would he stop believing? Would ANY body of faith stop believing what they believe? You can BAN people from DOING things but you cant remove their faith or their church from within them. People ARE the church honey.
I agree that you do need to see someone who is a cult specialist to help you through your fears. Every time someone says boo you are going to freak out and thats no way to live.
hugs, Loves