oompa, where are you?? Answer already!!
You are tired of life... now. In a year from now, you will have shivers going down your spine when you think of all the life you would have missed out on, how much suffering your kids would have had to go through, how much of their accomplishments and smiles and hugs you missed. You will wonder how much different their lives would have been if you had gone through with it. If you take your life, you also take their innocence and their childhoods.
Get help, reach out to someone, check yourself into the hospital.... something!! We care, some of us have been where you are now. Use those phone numbers you have. You WILL feel better. Accept the help people are offering you. They wouldn't offer if they didn't care.
((((((oompa)))))
GGG