Eclipse, Just to let you know, they didn't make me give the talk I wanted to give it. I thought that would be the noble strong thing to do. My father had cancer for 9 months and was going fast(of the isophagus.) When I came home from school that day I was greeted by my mother and 2 brothers. The look on their faces, though they were trying to hide it, told me everything. I looked at each one of them and said 'so Dad's dead huh!'
Due to my than beliefs, in what I thought to be the truth, I had even at that young of an age developed a very emotionless persona. I refused to let my self feel pain or sorrow (kinda based on the whole man should not cry thing.) I believed In facts and logic over all else. We had a hope of a ressurection and what not so why should I feel upset or sorrow over this temporary loss. Of course I also believed that I would not finish high school.
One of the greatest faults of this religion is that it creates warped psychi's in people. After a while of being in, their initial truths and reasonings where thin. So you have two choices, 1. see that the emperor is truly naked or 2. reprogram yourself in such a fashion that your persona is altered to acceptthe conditioning and lies they tell.
