Being only a few days older than you here, I get to say "Welcome to the party!" It feels like that kind of gathering where everyone is comfortable saying exactly how and what,they feel. There are a million stories in the naked city, yours is one.
You are doing the right thing! Don't let them steal the rest of your life away. You can learn a lot from where you were, and from this forum, and grow and change and find peace. You will! The enemy meant it for harm, but God means it for good! You are still his precious child.He'll never leave or forsake you, no matter what you go through. And you will be stronger for it.Welcome!