Quelly , I enjoyed reading your post up to your last concluding remark.
When you said " it felt good to be a good christian etc'", did you feel superior in the fact you now know how to be good and they don't?
No disrespect but imo you are all victims of the same fundemental non...sense.
Did you try and impart the good news of the kingdom to them as jesus is supposed to have instructed his TRUE GOOD followers to do?
I'm sure thats what they think they are doing. ?...its all a dillusion, none of you are any better at being 'good' than the other.
In my humble opinion of course