I think you really needed to get this off your chest, and you are not a terrible person.
And yes, I've lost my inheritance because of the WTS. It was hard to swallow, for reasons of personal circumstance, but good to talk about it. That just hurts inside, and needs to be let out - it's not about the money, so much as what it says about how much your parents care about your future and welfare - especially if you did not get an education because of the 1975 thing. AND if *you* were the good son.. yup, it hurts a lot. I get it.
So, yeah, you had a thought, and now you can let it go. We often act out our deepest pain on other situations. It was a brave thing to ask that question in a public forum, but ya know what?
I think you got to the real issue, which is feelings about the way you were treated by your own family. Understand.
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