Posts by idranktheseawater

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One cute canadian sister

by thomyorke in

i like her videos about self-injury and other mental and physical problems, that could happened to young people.... she say that she is an active jw and regularly visit the meetings and go to service.. http://www.youtube.com/user/idranktheseawater.

but... what can you say about her wearing and hair style?.

it's cool, but it's "non-spiritual" style, not for "true" jw, isn't it ?!

idranktheseawater

Did they seriously use the words "mentally deseased"?

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One cute canadian sister

by thomyorke in

i like her videos about self-injury and other mental and physical problems, that could happened to young people.... she say that she is an active jw and regularly visit the meetings and go to service.. http://www.youtube.com/user/idranktheseawater.

but... what can you say about her wearing and hair style?.

it's cool, but it's "non-spiritual" style, not for "true" jw, isn't it ?!

idranktheseawater

Mentally deseased? did they put it that way? lol I hope not. But whether you are are no longer a Witness doesnt make you ingrates, so I dont assume you are rude because you chose another path

And yeah, iCeltic, I know where I am. I didnt know when I made my first post, but I figured it out soon after. Wont take up camp here as I am still a Witness, but thanks for the welcome.

Gypsy Sam...Ive seen that movie a few times. "Front of the class" Very good and inspiring movie.

Sorry to hear your daughter went through self harm. I hope she is doing better now.

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One cute canadian sister

by thomyorke in

i like her videos about self-injury and other mental and physical problems, that could happened to young people.... she say that she is an active jw and regularly visit the meetings and go to service.. http://www.youtube.com/user/idranktheseawater.

but... what can you say about her wearing and hair style?.

it's cool, but it's "non-spiritual" style, not for "true" jw, isn't it ?!

idranktheseawater

You guys have been pretty great. Thanks.

I agree that those who said thoughtless things did not intend to be mean...though I sense they just didnt intend to get caught.

I liked some of the things that were said before I got here. I like the first main post where he said he liked my vids and the awareness because its needed. Seems like he was maybe just confused about the issue of culture differences. I hope he didnt mean that I dress "half naked" as was commented about others 0.o

I think the main thing I was offended about was that I couldnt possibly be a JW because I work hard to do what is right.

There's a tourettes joke related to the watchtower? lol Id say I wanna hear it unless it involves swearing at the organization ;)

Thanks to all who have been welcoming and thanks for words of support

and lol Nosferatu....I think you need a dramatic entrance and a pity story to get the butt kissing? haha...I dont think it was butt kissing. You guys just seem nice.

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One cute canadian sister

by thomyorke in

i like her videos about self-injury and other mental and physical problems, that could happened to young people.... she say that she is an active jw and regularly visit the meetings and go to service.. http://www.youtube.com/user/idranktheseawater.

but... what can you say about her wearing and hair style?.

it's cool, but it's "non-spiritual" style, not for "true" jw, isn't it ?!

idranktheseawater

There were positive comments. Yes. Im grateful for those.

I didnt like reading that I dressed in a "non-spiritual" way

or that I could not possibly be a Jehovah's witness based on what was felt they knew about me. That I clearly dont go to the KH or go in service. That JW's would be telling me to stay home and keep my problems to myself.

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One cute canadian sister

by thomyorke in

i like her videos about self-injury and other mental and physical problems, that could happened to young people.... she say that she is an active jw and regularly visit the meetings and go to service.. http://www.youtube.com/user/idranktheseawater.

but... what can you say about her wearing and hair style?.

it's cool, but it's "non-spiritual" style, not for "true" jw, isn't it ?!

idranktheseawater

I joined this site so I could answer this thread

I am the person you are talking about

I remember you messaging me on youtube and asking me about this

I dont see what is wrong with my hair. We are completely allowed to dye our hair. If I were to dye it pink or blue or some unnatural color, there would be a problem, but blonde is not a problem. In fact, I was born with very blond hair and had it that way most of my life.

My clothes....I dress modestly. I dont have low cut shirts and I dont wear really short skirts. The elders have never aproached me about my clothing. The sisters here dress this way. It may be different in Russia, but there are cultural differences and that is all. Like in some countries (possibly Russia) the brothers can have a beard, but here....they cant. Its not appropriate.

I have even made certain for years that my dress is okay by asking opinions. There is no issue there. If there was, I would have resolved it.

About the swearing. I have tourettes syndrome. There was even an article about that in an awake recently. Jehovah understands that its not my fault. He knows i hate those words. Can you imagine being me and being forced to utter those kinds of things? Especially around children? How I must feel? Shame...

I stopped going door to door after the swearing started. I would do witnessing by letters and talk about my illness and tell them about how there would be an end to sicknesses like mine and any other.

At the kingdom hall...everyone knows I have tourettes. If I make strange noises or tic or spasm they dont judge because they know what I have. If I start swearing I rush out of the hall and let it all out when im outside.

What would you have me do? Stay home? Not get spiritual nurishment because I have an uncontrollable syndrome? I deserve to stay strong spiritually and without the meetings I would fall. I already lost being able to go door to door...something I did since I was a baby being carried in my mothers arms...something I did as a small child when all I could do was ring the bell and I was really proud to do that...or later... offer a tract. Imagine losing that?

If I wasnt supposed to go to the meetings, the elders would have told me, but they didnt, because that simply doesnt make sense.

About using my tourettes to "gauge peoples reactions" Seriously? You want to decide for me what my intent was? I wanted to show people what its really like to live with this disorder. Most people get their knowledge of it from the offensive show "South Park" People are suffering with this disorder and they feel alone and those around them make them feel bad. It wasnt easy for me to show what it looks like to be this way. I look totally in madness. Im not sorry I posted those vids. When we swear with tourettes...its not really swearing because the words are empty. There is no meaning or viscious intent. Its just an utterance the body forces out of me. If you judge me for that...it says more about you than it does about me.

Youll notice in the vid that you linked that I repeated the word "Sorry "multiple times. That is because I felt bad about the cursing and said I was sorry...but I felt so bad that the tourettes forced me to repeat the word over and over.

In my earlier vids. I did drop the F bomb at least once without tourettes and I felt shamefully about it later. I vowed not to do that again. People make mistakes. This is certainly not the worst I could have made.

At the hall...we have talks about gossip. This thread was gossip....and honestly it was hurtful.