I kinda understand what u are saying cicatrix. But what I have come to realize is that the organization is filled with imperfect people. U should not let such thing's keep u from attaining the free gift of salvation. If u would take note of the fact that Jesus was born in Israel amongst very religious people who not only worshipped the true God, But also had his commandments and religious set up. Jesus had debated with the so called priest and scribes of Israel regarding his status during his whole ministry. Jesus even stated that Jerusalem was the killer of all the prophets even tho they were God's chosen people. Also take note of the fact that the first century christians had received some bad complaints from Jesus in the warnings to the seven congregations in the first century. Paul had to wirte many letters and speak to many in the congregation in regards to there spirituality and well being. If Israel and the first century christians acted this way, then we should expect this type of behavior in the last days of the wicked system. I feel that a lot of going's on in the JW could possibly be shady, But I feel that if I have a personal relationship with Jehovah and strive my hardest to do his will according to the way Jesus did thing's then I can wait until he comes and clean house inside and out. The bible states that if one evil man turns from his way toward a righteous path all the heavenly angels rejoice over that one repentant sinner than for a hundred dedicated righteous ones.