Come on now, you have got to try harder than that. Just to be fair, I did go back and reread your posts on your first thread. Nope, nary a hint of financial troubles - just like all the others.
Ok lets' go back to the post I first made shall we?
http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/forum/thread.aspx?id=41566&site=3
On the 19th post from the top, read paragraph 23, 24 and 26 near the bottom of my post... I'll be happy to copy and paste it here...
My hours and pay isn't as good as it was at my previous employment. This is making me even more depressed because I am behind on rent on the moble home lot while I own a moble home and I behind on morgage payments. I have medical bills as well as utility bills I need to catch up on as well. Everyone including me have our hours cut and I am working 20+ hrs a week. This is not good because it's making it hard to stay on top of everything in order to live. I am on depression medication that is very expensive for me to take. I am afraid I will lose my home and I have no where else to live. I am even running out of food and don't know where my next meal is going to come from.
Right now, I am feeling suicidal again and I am fighting my depression as hard as I can and I am constantly praying to God everyday for help. I am trying to find a better job, even looking for a part time job. Being deaf doesn't make my job hunt any easier either. It takes me longer to find a job being deaf than a hearing person would find a job. I have a deaf friend who is also looking for a better job and he went throught 20 job interviews in one month and none of them ever called him back to say he got a job.
Anyway, please pray for me finacially as well as getting a better job. I'm going to try and find food banks tomorrow and see if I can get any food. Wish me luck.
How is your tone supposed to be, you ask? I can tell you right now, that if I was on the verge of being tossed into the street, good sense of hearing or not, I would not have had time to be posting friendly little notes on the internet. Anything I did would be firmly centered around attacking the problem: earning money, talking with creditors, soliciting social services ... that stuff.
That's what I am doing and so far, nothing. No calls to my sister whom I have put her number down to have employers call her so then she can fire me an email to let me know they called. No emails from the employers nonewhatsoever. I'm not talking to creditors as you are suggesting and I should be, but I have been spending too much time doing 2 things.
1) If I have the money to spend gas on my car, I will go out and hit as many places I can find that I think works well around my deafness. I much rather get out of the retail business altogether, I've been in it for like 20 years of my life, coming close to it. But in between I have worked in warehouses and factories before. The last factory I worked at was a plastic molding job, I didn't fare well there since I didn't meet their criteria(s?) ( is that the right word usage or is it "quota"? I'm trying to mean meeting the number of items per box per hour, inspecting each item to make sure they meet the specifications) as expected of me and they let me go. *shrug* I tried.
2) Surf job banks online and put up my resume. My best friend's wife got a job that way. He even helped me better my resume as well.
Guess I'll take a time out from a job hunt and look for a good creditor to talk to. But in the meantime, the deadline is the 13th, so hopefully you understand that I am panicking(s?) and am desperate to get myself out of a jam.
You have to understand that it's harder to land a job being deaf than an average person could find a job. I am aware some hearing folks could be facing the exact same problem and could be out of a job for many months before landing a job. I don't mean any disrespect to the hearing people in general, but if you were in my shoes and lived my life, you'd understand my situation. But the problem is you're not deaf, so I can understand how hard it can be to get a firm grasp in my situation. I can try and explain, but I don't know if you can understand it fully. It's hard to explain my world versus your world. (deaf vs hearing).
If you want me to explain a little more, I can try. Forgive me that my english (especially grammer) sucks and I don't always convey my thoughts into english very well. Often times I say one thing and the other end gets the idea all wrong. That frustrates me alot. Of course I am guilty of run on sentences. I really really suck at that.
English is my secondary language. Sign language is my first language. Actually, I take that back. Lip reading is my first language since I started out learning that at the Speech and Hearing Center in Bloomington at age 5. I lost my hearing at age 3, so I knew very little with words. I have forgotten most of it later in years.
My mother said last I learned before I stopped learning more words was she counted 38 words. It's less than that now, I know how to say hello, goodbye, just the basic stuff, but that's about it. Mom told me I never learned to make a complete sentence structure verbally.If my shoelace was untied, I'd just say "shoe mom" and point at my shoe, instead of "please tie my shoe, mom" and I still remember how to say shoe.
Fortunanly in writing terms, I can learn how to write and comprehend words and I am still learning as I go on forums like this. Idioms is what I have the most trouble with. I still don't know what "kettle calling pot black" means. I'm too lazy to ask. What in the world does that mean and where did that come from? *shrug*
Ok enuff of my blabbing, another fault of my own. I don't know when to shut up. LOL