DW I am not sure if I believe in a Diety or not, ultimately I do not even think it matters much if there is one. He obviously has not outlined anything he specifically wants anyone to do so if there is one - he probably got the ball rolling and left. I just cant see how it is necessary to even care. If someone wants you to do something they make that perfectly clear... that hasn't been done so it makes me realize it probably isn't even important.
Just two days ago I got 4 voice messages from my father and brother trying to entrap me into saying on speakerphone that I wrote the letter so they can have two witnesses. I have all these crazy text messages as well. I am thinking of posting them once I can alter the voices so people can hear how maniacal they are...
My father summed up the insanity they have perfeectly, he says to me, "I don't care about what you want to do or think but I will not allow your thoughts cause me to miss out on paradise" then he pounds the table. The deal is the lives of many religious zealots are ssubpar and they see no way to really achieve or be the best they can be. SO they hold on to this dream of a future paradise in earth or heaven wher they are a somebody - instead of just enjoying what they have or can be now. It is freaking ridiculous, yet I fully understand why they are that way.
nonjwspouse I want to change my name to "cantrelate" LOL.
My goal is to get to the point in life when it feels like I was never some confused bible thumping lunatic. I want to see JW's and think wow that is nuts and keep on moving. I dont want to talk to them I dont want to challenge them just see them and move. When people discuss religion I will have no desire to even engage in the useless bantor. I just can't relate to what they are doing or thinking...