SBC-I just read your introduction post after reading about your kangaroo court hearing.
Anyway, your story is so similar to mine-the hubby and I tried to reconnect with "the truth" after being inactive. The hubby was even on an assembly part about coming back after being inactive, but like you said, if the foundation is cracked, the doubts come back tenfold. The koolaid does taste good at first, but you quickly taste the bitterness.
Fast forward to today, we have each other and our children, but the rest of the family rarely speaks to us. Fortunately we do not live near any of them so that helps. We were told that we can still come visit but it would be awkward.
I feel so sorry for the posters on this board that have spouses and children still stuck in the cult. I can't imagine trying to deal with that.