I must echo some of the above posts - Iwish4truth sounds like where I was when I first started questioning the JWs ten years ago. At this point you have essentially two places to go. Or perhaps I should say you have a choice of staying where you are or moving to the next level.
You can chose a real transformation of consciousness, a radical step up in your world-view. It doesn't mean totally rejecting all that you believe now, but it does require recognizing its limitations and expanding your thinking beyond them. I'm afraid that fundamental and literal religion, especially fundamental Christianity, will have to be shed if you're going to take that step.
Or you can merely seek a new translation of the same level of consciousness that you had as a Witness. That seems to be what RR and some of these others are offering you. The same deadend fundamentalism.
A genuine spiritual transformation will require that you grow up though. Whining about what terrible times we live in and how powerless we are and how we need the Big Daddy God to come and make everything right for us are the hallmarks of the low tier of consciousness where JWs and fundamentalists of all stripes find themselves stuck. It feels like it's a safe place to be because it presents the world in such black and white terms, and sees that higher power out there somewhere who will fix it all for us as long as we all obey the rules and rigidly follow the code.
It's essentially a literal interpretation of myths that were meant to be understood as metaphor.
A genuine integral transformation will bring you into a much more complex world, one filled with all the colors and not just black and white. It will require that you stand on your own two feet, that you stop whining, and that you face a world that is both wonderful and tragic with great personal courage and integrity.
Are you ready to move ahead in your spiritual growth? I have no idea. If some of the things I've written here, or that JT or Abaddon have written, strike a chord with you, then maybe you're ready to really make a transformation.
If they make no sense to you, or scare you to death, perhaps you need to remain at that safe tier of certainty that you had as a Witness. If so, instead of moving up to a new level of consiousness, you can just gently slide over to a new translation of the old ideas that is more comfortable for you.
But remember that an integral transformation of your world view is not a gentle or easy process. In fact most people seldom make the move because it requires too much honesty, takes us too far from our comfort zone, deals with real truth and not just imagined religious ones. It's just so much easier for most people to simply find new versions of the same old ways of thinking instead of stepping up to a new tier of spirituality.
Good luck. It can be a marvelous - if scary - journey when you start taking responsiblity for you own life.
S4