I have to say though that I am finding it increasingly hard. Something has to give.
Today we had a talk about "Jehovah's Day" where the speaker emphasised how destructive Jehovah's Day will be. He used the scripture about the Last Days being like "pangs of distress", equating them to birth pangs, something that cannot be ignored and will always result in a conclusion. He then talked about it being as a thief.
I was sitting there steaming - which is it? Are the last days so eventful that they cannot be ignored or is discernment of events so limited that you have to keep watch as if waiting for someone to come in the dead of night and burgle your home?
Then we had the WT about training. The term "young ones" as used over and over again, except of course the article is only talking about young ones with a penis. Not one word about how females can "progress", because of course they can't go that far unless it's on the coat tails of their husband.
Of course, the disengagement of males in the congregation is down to them having secular goals. Perhaps so but no word about perhaps how the theology simply does not make sense anymore. Has my dis-engagement after 20 years as an MS come from not making the truth my own or the fact I woke up to the whole thing being a crock of shite?
After meetings like today's, I really feel fit to burst with anger and frustration.