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I was a JW for 20 years, I conisdered myslef a good human being and I still do. I work as a doctor and so I have no mental diseases or alike. I left the JW's without being DF'd or anything of the like. I found they were not quite as honest as I once thought and found them to be cold hearted under all the love bombing you will soon experience. The people themselves are lovely as are most human beings, but their rules and beliefs make them very judgmental to the point of it being painfully confusing. Spend all morning talking and praying for the coming Armageddon and the death of everyone that is not doing what 8 men in a room in New York say they should , then spend all afternoon trying to 'save' the very same people.
I dont want to live forever on a paradise earth if the price is that all mankind is destoyed in a day of rage. On top of this I looked into scripture more deeply than the very skim-read approach of all JW's. Not one JW can explain the hypocrisy of a god that commints genocide, infanticide, slavery and war but then encourages you to love your enemy. No one can tell you that god will look after the children at armageddon when he killed hundreds of thousands in the city attacks of the old testament. Or what about the baby of David and Bathsheba, killed as a punishment for THEIR sin. This is all nonsense and disgusting. The god that asked abraham to kill his only son can go suck a bag of cocks.
Regarding doctrine, the best thing to do is look at their own literature. When I was being groomed for bigger things in the society, I was looking to purchase all the old literature from ebay. I was strongly advised not to. There is a reason why... the flip flpping is immense. Not only that the consequence of all these false teachings have been as severe as death. Check out http://www.quotes-watchtower.co.uk/flip-flops.html for a really good source of what they said and what they say now. We are not talking that long ago either ! Whats funny is, JW's including the old me will say I am showing you apostate material..despite it being straight from their literaure, quote by quote. Probably the most disturbing example is the German yearbook that not only sided with Hitler on his politics, but also on his opinion of the jews. In the 90's the WT society finally lost a case and had to add an apology in one of the magazines. They didnt even do that, they just said they were reffering to some Jews not all Jews, which in context was an account that had them painted as a financially dominant selfish people. There was a quote in the yearbook about New York akin too "they run it, they own it, we pay for it." quie racist stuff.
I perosnaly left after finding out the JW's were tied up with the UN, a complex situation but shows how little they believe their own doctrine. I also found out they used the stock market to make money. This is supposed to be a charity, using donations on in a casino market! They also tell us to "be no part of the world." and yet here they are rolling the dice as "institutional investors." One elder said "Jehovah is using Satans money to do his work." The day a god needs the stock market is a sad day indeed. They hypocrisy with money is shameful. The final straw for me was seeing that "The Watchtower Society" owned a company (via majority shares )that dealt with NAVY technology. Specifically an engine. The engine was built with military money. It is all available to see in the SEC files of the USA government online. The day I saw that... I said to myself.. the WT society includes me, as a publisher I am a voter in the society. I don't want to be a part of the military complex. The WT society will send a letter to your elders which they will read to you (no copies allowed), if you write to them and ask about it. They say it was an error. They think we are dumb, they attempted to explain it away as donated shares they knew nothing about. You try dontating shares to someone, have them set up a proxy voice, own the majority shares of a company.. without them knowing about it! This was when I decided to leave.
Since leaving I have learned much.. such the founder being convicted of fraud, including selling fraudlulent material FROM the WT magazines. A 'miracle wheat' blessed by god .......at 7x the normal price. Depite god hating a divorce, he was in fact divorced.. by his wife... because he slept with the maid! All of this whilst he ran the WT society. Then we go on to the later years where there has been a mass of flip-flopping on doctrine that has led to people ACTUALLY DYING !!!! ....
Sooooo... angry, yes we are. Dissapointed... yes we are..... hurt... yes we are. Evil, mentally diseased apostates trying to mislead the world.. nooooo, we leave that to the experts in brooklyn.