One good thing ....... at least you know the source of the problem.
You are not ignorant about why you are miserable & frustrated. The enemy is not your mate. You will not go on for years and finally divorce because you are so strung out from trying to make 'this religion right'. Blaming each other for being spiritually weak, for being 'lazy', for not fitting in. You do know who the enemy is!
From someone who lost so much a long time ago & didn't have a clue.
clarity