i'm confused, i feel hypocritical. first let me get this clear, i'm not a religious person, but i believe someone or something started the big bang and chain of events that created our universe. i believe in evolution.
lifes really been on the brightside. i've made lots of friends. different friends, i don't just hang out with one group. i don't really give a damn about dating and all that bullshit now. my atitude seems very uncaring and just living it right now. but friends are where its at.
but thats where i feel so hypocritical at. i have friends that go clubbing, drink, smoke, party, and i love it, it is so damn fun. and then i have friends who are religious and awesome christians, play in bands, go to rock concerts, lead church services, live good lives, and just effin rock out. and then theres the girl, that i will always still think about until i meet the next one that clicks.
funny thing, the last party i had, i invited all of these people, but there was no smoking allowed because of the parents. they all went together well.
well to make matters worse, tonight my parents invited their jehovahs witness friends and i hung out with em, all of em girls, it was a nightmare. but one particular, my age, seemed like she wanted to get out of the oppression but still want to continue with her faith. she noticed i didnt hang out with anyone from the kingdom. i just told her that group told lies about me and she said none of the girls talk to her also. i also told her about my rock concerts and a club. and from that, i'm going to field service with her and her friends tomorrow morning. blah it was a fun night.
hah this girl is the one i helped a cool witness friend hook up with. but i know the limits.
anyway, what the hell is up with me? is this good or bad? do i just want it all? why the hell am i voluntarily going to field service tomorrow? its just so wierd on the mind.
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dammit life in confusion
by tsunami_rid3r ini'm confused, i feel hypocritical.
first let me get this clear, i'm not a religious person, but i believe someone or something started the big bang and chain of events that created our universe.
i believe in evolution.
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I CARE
by tsunami_rid3r inwould this be a nice poem to give to a girl?
whos just a friend?
who doesnt want people to think that we date.
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funny thing is, she doesn't care if i care. well, tonight i made great new friends, and i just realized one of my friends and is a damn good true christian. i love life.
he put on a guitar show at this coffee like all the way in town, and i felt i wanted to be supportive. and yippy, i got a new camera. so yea, i got pictures of tonight. it was fun.
wow my life is wierd, like one night i'm out clubbing with these hot chicks, drinking alcohol and smoking together, just partying all night, and then sometimes i'm feeling like i need a girl to give me peace and set me on a straight path of commitment. and another night i'm at a rock concert moshing with all these rockers, and another night i'm at a coffee house hanging out with all of my christian friends only to come home to parents who bitch about me coming home late and mom laughing about supporting friends.
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by tsunami_rid3r inwould this be a nice poem to give to a girl?
whos just a friend?
who doesnt want people to think that we date.
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we're just friends really, we don't date.
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by tsunami_rid3r inwould this be a nice poem to give to a girl?
whos just a friend?
who doesnt want people to think that we date.
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well thats the whole point of the poem, well to let her know, that i do care but i cant show it or dont really want to hang out with her because of the front she puts up with others. she will tell them WE DO NOT DATE and whoever said that is lying. last night out of everyone i didnt get a goodbye hug. lol.
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by tsunami_rid3r inwould this be a nice poem to give to a girl?
whos just a friend?
who doesnt want people to think that we date.
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would this be a nice poem to give to a girl? whos just a friend? who doesnt want people to think that we date.
i care, with my deepest regards
for you i'd jump infinite yards
and yet its so hard to show the meaning
when words and actions are so revealing
you were dreams among a world of nightmares
your smile burns like sun solar flares
you are the peace in a world of hate
and yet i do this only for your sake
i care, with this only regard
why to show it its so hard?
i care so much for you i'd sink
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wooohooo like old times
by tsunami_rid3r inoh my god, i'm back into the groove again.
back when i first made the move to get out of this religion, i was partying with this girl from work, but then i fuked it up.
second semester i made lots of friends but they really chirstian, but still fun with going to concerts and all.
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k i definitely want to club more now. i think i got this. but i wasnt really caring at all last night. i had a buzz and i danced real easy. i just cracked a smirk when i got rejected. the thong contest was awesome. lol.
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wooohooo like old times
by tsunami_rid3r inoh my god, i'm back into the groove again.
back when i first made the move to get out of this religion, i was partying with this girl from work, but then i fuked it up.
second semester i made lots of friends but they really chirstian, but still fun with going to concerts and all.
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hmmmmm...i saw lots of dudes doing that...so i copied. but i soooo thought about that skit. and the night at the roxbury. lol. omg.
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wooohooo like old times
by tsunami_rid3r inoh my god, i'm back into the groove again.
back when i first made the move to get out of this religion, i was partying with this girl from work, but then i fuked it up.
second semester i made lots of friends but they really chirstian, but still fun with going to concerts and all.
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hm ok, it was loud, so i didn't no if anyone could here me. but yea that makes since. asking them for a dance first. lol. wow i'm an idiot. but c'mon it was my first time!
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wooohooo like old times
by tsunami_rid3r inoh my god, i'm back into the groove again.
back when i first made the move to get out of this religion, i was partying with this girl from work, but then i fuked it up.
second semester i made lots of friends but they really chirstian, but still fun with going to concerts and all.
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oh my god, i'm back into the groove again. back when i first made the move to get out of this religion, i was partying with this girl from work, but then i fuked it up. second semester i made lots of friends but they really chirstian, but still fun with going to concerts and all. but i haven't drank in a long ass time because they dont really drink or smoke.
last night i went clubbin with these 2 chicks, and there was lots of girls and drinkin. and i met a lot of chicks and dudes from school. man it was nice. it was sooo fukin fun. and then this other chick from work sends me a text about a little party that was going on. i tried to call her but no answer. oh well, i had to be at home at anyway, it was 3 am. still, the parents seemed like they really didn't care.
my observation, there was a lot of dudes at the club. i got a few rejections, hmm i think i don't know how to approach a girl at a club dance floor. i mean this one chick was just standing there and i walked up and grab her side for a dance, but she just pushed me away. lol. this other dude saw me, i guess, shook my hand like nice try. still i danced with a few girls.
but WHAT is the best approach to dancing with a girl?
this is great practice for taking rejections though. hm i notice a lot of guys and girls were real touchy. i tried to be touchy feely but its tough for me. am i just a pussy or what? -
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i did it!!!!
by tsunami_rid3r intoday.
well i called that chicks number, it was her home number and her mom answered.
i thought it was her and said "hey whats up?
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well. the above made me feel like a shitty person. so i called her today to see if she had a ride...well im taking her. i can probably call up the other chick that day and see if she wants to go also. my truck only holds 3 people... ;-)