Chloe,
I was raised a witness. I do believe a lot of what I was taught, however I was always made to feel I wasn't good enough, or doing enough. I was always comparing myself to the other "wives". They took thier kids out in service while their husbands worked. I felt looked down upon for working and establishing a career, since there was no time for "witnessing".
I was married a week after I turned 18. I felt pressured to be married if I wanted to have a relationship. Then, everyone was involved with the marriage. Elders included. Was I doing what "christian wives" should do? A year and a half after my marriage, I left my husband and disassociated my self from the church. I wasn't going to feel guilty about my choices in life. I still read my bible and other publications, but I have no desire to ever attend another meeting. It's very womanizing, and everyone was so judgemental.
I doubt your husband would leave you because your an unbeliever, as the only grounds for divorce are adultry. A therapist probably wouldn't be much help either. The only suggestion I have have is to follow your heart. You are the only one who know whats best for you. For me, it was not living that lifestyle anymore. I just couldn't like up to their expectations, which is no way to live! Hopefully, your husband is supportive of your feelings. Email me if you want to talk more, I have a lot of inside and outside veiws that may be helpful. [email protected]