Like Scully, I don't want to rehash the whole fun experience -- i'd like to be able to get some sleep tonight.
Something was very wrong in my life, I had no joy. Since I was a good dub, I was told "You have to do more." "You need to re-devote yourself whole-souled to Jah and everything will be fine!" Etc.,etc *sigh*. Nothing worked. So one day I over-dosed on some pills. When I survived and was told by the MHMR people who meet the lucky survivors at the hospital that I probably have Major Depression (it was later confirmed) and needed to see a professional...I thought everyone would be happy.
1. I was alive...
2. There was a good reason for my behavior. I wasn't crazy, (very much, anyway)
3. Best of all...there was help.........I could be helped, hooray.
Wrong.
It seems everyone thought like the above posts, I had lost Jah's Holy Spirit, I was probably guilty of something, wasn't doing enough, spiritually sick and it was even suggested I must have bought something at a Garage Sale that had a Demon, and it jumped in me (like Stargate 1, a gould).
I was getting real help from a great psychiatrist, when I got home I would get the 3rd degree from my JW wife, now my X, about WHAT did y'all talk about...is he saying it's all my (her) fault? Then the stuff about how you have to be really careful -- cause it's a well known fact that those kind of Doctors can PUT wrong thoughts in your head, like leaving your spouse and leaving your religion, too.
We ended up having words everytime I came home...I told the Doctor, he suggested having her come to the next meeting...so she could see for herself what was going on. Good idea ! Not ! I have never seen her so furious, she yelled and screamed, "How dare you make an appointment for ME ! There's nothing wrong with ME, there's only something wrong with YOU! You go if you want to, but, I'll never let people put thoughts in MY MIND!"
Her family is top heavy with Elders & MS, for good advice. nlaa (not-laughing-at-all)
And she never did let anyone put bad thoughts in her mind, she's still a great devoted JW.
* sigh *
PS: I am much better, however and very happy. Yes, I know it's all an illusion from Satan, but, as the song goes,"Sometimes ya' don't get what ya' want, but, sometimes ya' get what ya' n e e d ..."