i don't know what to do.... i married last year and things have been very rocky.
we dated for 4 years and did have normal issues but always had a lingering doubt something was just not right in our relationship-behavior to be more specific, he is not a jw, but i am.
yes i know i married outside the "lord" but after my first marriage to a jw ended in divorce for physical abuse, i was glad i didn't married another jw.
There are varying degrees of affliction in the autism/Aspergers spectrum.
Anywhere from barely able to cope with anything to "high functioning".
My JW wife believes I am the latter. I tend to agree.
I find myself at times taking things too serious or too literal and this can cause a social conflict. Sometimes it takes special convincing to help me see an obvious mistake most others see.
What type of behaviors/routines are difficult for you/him to cope with?
why the anticipation?.
"no one knows the day or hour", i thought?.
i knew this very mentally unstable jw woman years ago.
Why the anticipation?
"No one knows the day or hour", I thought?
I knew this very mentally unstable JW woman years ago. She would get so hyped up for Harm-you-gettin', that she would find herself committed to the sanitarium near annually.
We looked after her two pre-teen children for a couple weeks during one of her episodes.
They all shun me now...
Love to hear some of your October or seasonal JW real life fantasy moments!
long time lurker here.
i'm a fifth gen born-in baptized jw.
to say i've been struggling with doubts is an understatement.
today at work i had an interesting set of co workers.
one was telling us about her side job selling sex toys(also a l&d nurse).
the other one, very beautiful, intelligent woman told us of her 2 kids.
I spot them all over town whenever I go out.
was just out shopping and came across two middle aged female witnesses with their magazine trolley..
i approached them and they were all glee and smiles and ready to hand me a couple of magazines.
one moment ladies i have just a couple of questions..
none of my jehovah's witness relatives called to tell me or my family.
just found out this morning.
Looking back, why do we shun again?
This is pure madness and I hate myself sometimes for taking part in the "love".
The levels of pain within this ORG that JWs pretend has no effect on them is almost indescribable.
while i was sitting through another grueling watchtower, dying from my brain being turned into cult pudding, i had this thought after i heard this read: .
when we express our most intimate thoughts to god in prayer, he may answer us through a bible passage, an article in a magazine, or an encouraging word from a fellow believer.
-august 2015 watchtard.
I hate that we were fooled.
I hate that I have given up all of my adult life in a delusion.
I love that I am free.
so my wife and i were curious so i researched some financial links and found records indicating that the wt society has been operating at a loss since the year 2012. as you read the links it shows a loss of 10 million $$$ in 2012, about 16 million $$$ in 2013, and a whopping loss of 56 million $$$ in 2014 - where the expenditures exceeded the revenues for each of those years in the amount i've mentioned.
also there is a link on this same website with the sec records indicating that the wt society and it's representatives funneled 40 million $$$$ into hedge funds in the cayman islands as early as 2007. if you look online on other sites you can see evidence that indicates the wt society attended hedge fund conferences to look into more shadiness in 2011 and isn't it curious that by 2012 the wt society started showing losses.
anyway here is the link : https://www.watchtowerlies.com/the_watchtower_revenue.html .. feel free to check this link out and other links on that link indicating the cayman island connection.
Maybe some dirty, apostate, bethel, financial mole scuttled the ship from within.
Self destruct sequence has been initiated and cannot be reversed...
That would make a nice movie plot.
it's become obvious in the last few days that the borg is done, done giving one dime over to the membership of the organization.
they know or have been told that it's a waste of time to spend money trying to recruit new members so their cutting all out lays of money in this regard to the bone.
they will continue to spend money where they can make a prophet, keeping the ones in, not thinking and donating.
I had a thought about this late last night.
GB get "raptured" to some island getaway.
All the money and real estate profits (prophets ) suddenly do, too.
the end...
The faithful can meet in basements and review old articles from their bound volumes until Harm-you-gettin' finally comes.
yesterday i read something that hurt my heart.
at a talk given by a brother lyman swingle ( i apologize if i am stepping out of line by using this) he said "that if you leave the jw ( i find it difficult to refer to it as the truth now days) you may as well go jump off a bridge".
this i think is disgraceful talk to say to any body let alone an audience in which children are present.
Thanks for this post.
Feeling a bit down today.
Where shall we go? Anywhere they ain't!
