Posts by eisenstein

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Ozzie's Weekend Poll #27

by ozziepost in

jw
friends

things are warming up this side of the pacific as we approach the summer season, so it's good to have a little relax and a nice cuppa.

time also to think of our poll for the weekend.

are you ready?

eisenstein

HaHaHaHaHaHaHa Ozzie,

Great post! and well while you are beginning to get the warmer weather we are beginning to get the colder weather here in USA. Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! I hope you have a great summer!!!

#5 only...Can I have a Big Gulp now? (extra large soda) hee, hee, hee

#10 only...Did I turn off the haligen lamp?

#14 LOL

and #20: Working with an elder who used field service to pry into your personal business e.g. "So how long has your mom been disfellowshipped?"

Edited by - eisenstein on 24 November 2002 15:55:1

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No longer filling my spiritual needs...

by eisenstein in

i feel very sad today.

i see my old jw friends almost every day on my way to the subway, they are street witnessing.

i've talked to a couple of them about my doubts, etc.

I understand what Robyn is saying. I also believe as you, that Truth is absolute and not relative. It's Religion that's relative. Robyn is right by saying it is up to US to develop a personal relationship with God. And I admire her honesty by telling me that if I still feel that the JWs have the "truth", go back there and give it another shot. I don't think this is a step I want to take, but it is a course. And each of us have to find our way, as Robyn said.

I bought a book on meditation a while back, and I was hesitant at first to buy it because, of all the hype I was taught as a JW. But, it is called: Wherever You Go There You Are, Mindfulness Meditation in Everyday Life by Jon Kabat-Zinn. I found it very hard to just sit even for 5 minutes and meditate, to let go and just exist for 5 minutes. I mean..."I have to save the world!" LOL. But I think it was beginning to help me be more aware of myself and my surroundings and others. It's a good book, I've gotten over halfway through it. I have a long way to go, though.

I am a firm believer in the power of Jesus Christ. His love was absolute. And I think the closer we can come to him the better a person we will be.

Thanks Jerome and Robyn!!! eisenstein

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No longer filling my spiritual needs...

by eisenstein in

i feel very sad today.

i see my old jw friends almost every day on my way to the subway, they are street witnessing.

i've talked to a couple of them about my doubts, etc.

eisenstein

Will Do!!! Robyn!

Thanks Again,

Love,

eisenstein

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No longer filling my spiritual needs...

by eisenstein in

i feel very sad today.

i see my old jw friends almost every day on my way to the subway, they are street witnessing.

i've talked to a couple of them about my doubts, etc.

eisenstein

Thanks Preacher,

for finding me on this web site!

eisenstein

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No longer filling my spiritual needs...

by eisenstein in

i feel very sad today.

i see my old jw friends almost every day on my way to the subway, they are street witnessing.

i've talked to a couple of them about my doubts, etc.

eisenstein

Core,

Thank you also, for your kind words and to let me know I am in your thoughts.

eisenstein

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No longer filling my spiritual needs...

by eisenstein in

i feel very sad today.

i see my old jw friends almost every day on my way to the subway, they are street witnessing.

i've talked to a couple of them about my doubts, etc.

eisenstein

Thank You too Comf,

I haven't touched a canvas in years...maybe it is time to buy some paint or pastels and get to work. You gave me some really good advice, glad to hear you are trying to take good care of yourself!

eisenstein

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No longer filling my spiritual needs...

by eisenstein in

i feel very sad today.

i see my old jw friends almost every day on my way to the subway, they are street witnessing.

i've talked to a couple of them about my doubts, etc.

eisenstein

Thanks Cellomould,

I have a copy of Ray Franz' book and I am still trying to finish it. Very emotionally draining yet uplifting too.

eisenstein

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No longer filling my spiritual needs...

by eisenstein in

i feel very sad today.

i see my old jw friends almost every day on my way to the subway, they are street witnessing.

i've talked to a couple of them about my doubts, etc.

eisenstein

Thank You Jerome too,

I am going to buy a different bible like you mentioned. And thanks for your encouragement.

eisenstein

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No longer filling my spiritual needs...

by eisenstein in

i feel very sad today.

i see my old jw friends almost every day on my way to the subway, they are street witnessing.

i've talked to a couple of them about my doubts, etc.

eisenstein

Thanks Robyn, for the hug and for your words of encouragement. Prayer does help, and sometimes I set my clock for 5am on Sundays to hear a sermon on the radio, that has helped some too. Maybe I will make it one day to the actual church and hear it live.

As for what I meant by being baptized with fire...well, it is a long story. I almost died trying to kill myself while I was in the hospital and had a spiritual encounter with a higher being. Also, during the same awful hospitalization I came to in an isolation room somewhere in the hospital feeling like I had terribly been violently and repeatedly raped. (It is not any new term the WTS has come up with, just something between me and God)

eisenstein

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been away from organization for a while now, yet?.

by intellecta in

i found this site accidently i guess.

i have been away from the truth for a while now...6 years... yet it always permeates my mind somehow and i fear the events happening in the world, and wonder.... i guess my problem was that i hated going out door to door as a child.. somehow i hated invading other people's privacy and felt wrong somehow, or embarrased, or just plain hated it period.

i think that is the biggest thing that keeps me away from ever returning.. somehow i, in my small mind cannot understand why small children should do such a thing until they are old enough to at least have a say in it.. like an opinion??

eisenstein

Hi Intellecta!

Welcome! I am fairly new to this website and have met some very nice folks who feel some of the same things you feel. I actually just posted something along the same line of thought. (Great minds think alike).

I am finally beginning to realize what the scripture means that says that God doesn't dwell in man made temples. This holds true for the witnesses also. Don't be afraid when you watch the news, I know it is hard, but if you have peace in your heart and feel the way you do when you are seeing such bad things happening around the world, that in itself shows you are concerned for your fellowman. I don't know what the near future holds, but I know a God of love would not and will not destroy innocent people, especially those who are victims of the "society" in which we live. If you don't feel like taking your children to the kh then go with that feeling, there must be a good reason, I know you love your children and want the best for them. I for one would feel very skeptical of taking my children (if I had any) to a place where this abuse is going on.

So, please don't worry and know that things will work out for the better in the end. I hope this is helpful, I have a tendancy to ramble on. That's why I don't post too often. LOL